My mother was a drug addict and
I never knew my father. So my grandparents raised me. They were strict, but they loved and sheltered me, and they did the best they could.
The one thing they didn’t do was teach me how to take care of myself. So when I had my first child at age 18, I had no idea what to do. Then, when I met a man who promised to take care of me and my child, I moved in with him. I never had to work or anything. He provided for us, and we had two more children together.
But he also beat me and controlled every part of my life. Worse, I was so afraid to be on my own, I felt like I couldn't leave him.
After almost 10 years of his abuse, however, I finally left him. But I still had no idea what to do so I turned to stripping to make money. My self-esteem just got worse and worse, and I had to learn to shut off my feelings to adjust. (more…)